The time has come for us to have a heart to heart. I know I know, your defenses are already going up at the sound of the word ‘heart’, and ‘talk’ but I am not here to lecture. This is a long time coming and it comes with great love and compassion. After all you live in all of us. You live in me, my son, my husband, my daughter, mother and father. Your wounding is deep and your pain a great canyon worn through time. Generation after generation of heart blocks and separation from source, from love, from body and from earth, your sacred consort, have formed you. I see you, it is hard to be you!

You are blamed for a great deal of suffering. I’m going to be honest here your wounding lies at the root of many of our greatest heart breaks, social, political, environmental and personal. But we are not here to point fingers. The purpose of this letter is to invite you to feel your emotions, in your body, all the way. Ok don’t run. I have bait. This is a guilt free invitation with a very juicy reward. I’m talking the juiciest.

The wounded masculine in all your most shadowy forms has hungered for intimacy with the feminine. Perhaps your own version of this, which we don’t have to recount. We all know the story of drugs sex and rock and roll. We have had quite enough of the incessant story of rape and pillaging all things feminine; earth, indigenous cultures, women, I could go on. But the center of this is a ravenous hunger for connection, pleasure and beauty; the goddess herself. You long for her. So here is the deal. You listen up and we will get there.

I want you to know that the way to the most blow your mind kind of intimate experience is to feel your feelings. Stay with me. I am speaking from personal experience with physiological, and psychological backing. You do not want to miss this information. The very thing that you are most scared of. I know I know, you don’t get scared. But seriously the thing that you are running from, drinking, drugging, cheap sexing, over working from, tik toking from, mind numbing from, is the very thing that will bring you into deep intimacy and life changing sex. I know I will not be popular saying this. I know you don’t want to hear this. But it must be said. Because the truth is I know you want it.

Take a breath and now another. Put your hand on your heart and breath once more. I know that your true nature is a strong heart warrior. Before your wounding you were called Shiva. Your names were many but you were, you are the sacred masculine. You were a heart warrior. You knew your place in the tribe. Many people relied on your strength and wisdom. You were needed. You were a protector of many. You knew your place was to honor and respect, care for and activate the sacred feminine in yourself, tribe, earth and in devotion and commitment to your sacred consort. You did not doubt your power. You understood who you really and humbly were, and are. You opened to your divine nature. Your lover desired you often and felt safe and beautiful in your arms. You cared for and honored her divine nature. It was delicious.

Now my dear, I understand this sounds like the stuff of ancient myth. But the seeds of truth that lie in the myths from around the planet live in our very cells. You know this. You feel this truth in your bones. Part of you remembers your true role. Part of you remembers before you felt separate from the tribe, separate from the earth and separate from your divine nature.

So come a little closer, take a sip of this brew. I will tell you as an old auntie to a young initiate. You were made to heal this wound. You are here now, on this planet in this very moment to take on the greatest battle of all the ages. The layers of denial and protection, defenses, addictions you have built have grown almost impenetrable. Almost. But there is still time. There must be. Because it is the only way through. Wounded masculine, if you can sit, substance free for one minute today with your hand on your heart, perhaps in nature and dare to feel the sensations of emotion in your body, your heart, you will have taken up the golden sword of a grail knight and entered the forest. You will meet your greatest fears, dragons, hags, rejection, parent issues, demons and addictions. This my dear one is your task. You are seeking the Holy Grail at all costs. You might go to therapy, you might find a medicine woman, you may use plant medicine, you may sit in a park for hours and learn to cry, you may…journal. All of these are most worthy pursuits. Just keep telling yourself there is treasure waiting on the other side.

As the crone that I am, I must gently remind you that though great treasure awaits you, this treasure belongs to the goddess herself. First you must ask permission to cross her golden gate. Then as you enter her holy cave, know that you are not seeking to take, but to give. You are not claiming the cave, the consort or the treasure itself as your own. The wounded ways of claiming land, women, people, orgasms, rivers and so on as one’s own and taking what sparkles and discarding the rest are done. Do you hear this child? They are finished. This life altering treasure you will revel in, celebrate and deeply enjoy only when you have given your heart in true love and devotion. It will never be yours to claim. If you try it will fall through your hands like hot sand. This too may sound like a fairy tale but I speak an ancient truth. Heed my words, tend your wounds bravely and start to open your heart. Listen to what stirs there. Then when the time is ripe you will remember how to tenderly care for your sacred consort. This the first ingredient, love filled devotion, to drink fully of the Grail Cup.

Your consort comes in many forms. But I must speak of a woman’s body, heart, soul and mind and what happens to all aspects of a woman when her masculine partner feels their own emotions. SHE FEELS SAFE. SHE FEELS SEEN. These are the next two key pieces to the beautiful soft and delicious opening of her body. This is everything you have been waiting for. Your golden key. Her body relaxes. Her clitoris swells, her cervix softens, her vulva blossoms. Believe me, everyone is happy and the portal to transformation, deep spiritual awakening, healing the wounded feminine and masculine, true intimacy and yes blow your mind sex, will open. You want this.

Enter the forest of your greatest fears. Take up the quest of the warriors and knights of old. Remember your task to truly protect, honor, take a knee to the sacred feminine in all of us. She lives in you, she birthed you and she is calling for you. She is your divine counterpart but also an aspect of yourself. By facing your dragons and feeling your emotions, not numbing your aching heart with addictions and distractions you are welcoming back this rejected part of yourself. Can you feel it? You are already moving into wholeness. I can see the glint in your eye of the sacred protector, heart warrior that you truly are. Be brave my son and go where so few have gone before. You will be so glad you did. I promise. (A mischievous old lady cackle)

Yours in confidence,

THE OLD WOMAN IN THE WOOD

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